Good morning, friends,
All three of us were so eager yesterday to blog about our day, as it was a very powerful day. But, at the end of it, we all just needed to rest.
First of all, yesterday caused me to ask myself this question.... "What exactly is a mission?"These are my thoughts.
Mission work means going where God calls you, one step at a time. You find purpose in missions. God is involved in everything about it. Its actually for him that you go.
I remember a few years ago , I realized I wanted everything about my life to be a miracle. I love miracles! This trip has reminded me that is a lifestyle. If I go back to the US and keep my same job,or if I move to the Phillipines, (examples) , no matter what, I am a changed person after this mission trip.
That means to me that God called me to this mission to change me. There have been so many things -little things- relational mostly, that have impacted my need for God in my life. I have been looking at myself and seeing how I have been surviving the past 3 or so years, and its so far from where I really want to be.
Here at Rainbow, the people are rich. They know who they are in Christ. I think that is what it comes down to. They believe in God's love, and know it well. It has touched my heart.
Yesterday, the lead missionaries here spent the morning with us. There were tears and prayer. Something about their readiness to share lead us to many beautiful realizations. It felt so good to be in a safe presence and just open up, so tenderly.
We then proceeded to town. We shopped. We had an hour, so it was quick. It really is what I suggest ,if ever you go shopping in a different culture!!!There is so much to take in!
We came back to the going away party for the one of the missionaries here. The food was AMAZINGLY SCRUMPTIOUS!!!!! O my gosh! I dont know how to spell the words but very good. You have to ask us when we come home to describe it!
After that, the girls began handing us their sketchbooks...."Draw or write in my book Ate Kadie"
Well, for those of you who know me, writing is such a good way for me to pour out my heart. I really tend to open up and experience my true feelings when I write. So, as I began, I tried to keep it light and funny...little comics reminscent of the week's projects. One girls scrunched her face at the drawing I did...."Is that it?!"
Oh, ok, I thought. I am not getting it. So, of course, one of them helped me to understand. This is my time to really tell them how I feel. To share my heart, this is what they are after. Of course this means getting more emotional, but it is better too, really!
As I wrote to each girl,my heart started to really feel sad. I cant believe we are leaving this place. My heart is here. How do I let go and process these deep feelings in a healthy manner?
Well, thankfully, in that conversation with the lead missionaries I mentioned earlier, they confronted this struggle with us. Apparently, its part of it. So, I ask your prayers for us about this. It is really hard.
There was more exciting things that happened, but I am going to stop here!
Love, Kadie
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